All I can say is WOW.

Last day of school today! I cannot believe what I did after school. Seriously.

I KISSED BILL...

On the head, but STILL!

I just told him how much I'd enjoyed being his board-washing partner and his human dictionary, and I told him how much I'd miss him and then... I just hugged him and kissed him on the head.

When I think back now, it almost feels like a dream. I still don't quite believe I did it. I keep worrying, oh my God, what if it was all a dream, how stupid would that look? And I keep worrying... what if he hates me forever because of that? I'm SO worried, what if it was a bad way to end off the school year? What if he hates me? What if? WHAT IF?!

And I might never see him again either! Oh my God, seriously, I am SO scared! This is worse than being locked in a room full of porcelain dolls! [If you didn't read my first blog entry, I have pediophobia, that's fear of dolls.] I wish there was some way I could just find out if he hates me or not! But it would be way too embarrassing to ask one of his friends and I CAN'T ask him because I don't have his number! HELP!
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All my love HATE,

ڵιиx .. ♥

I'm living for what we used to be...

Today was the TALENT SHOW! My friends Alyshah and Sam and I were in it. We were singing a song we wrote called What We Used To Be with Sam's awesome rainstick-ing in the background. It's about how we were really close friends with a guy, and then when we started to like him as more than a friend he started to hate us. The song's dedicated to NS (Alyshah dedicated it to him) and SG (I dedicated it to him.) The whole time we were performing I was looking at SG and the expression on his face clearly said "OMG..." HA! I think we showed him. Or maybe it was something else, I dunno. But I like pretending the song actually made an impact on him. Hopefully he has it STUCK IN HIS HEAD. :]
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All my love HATE,

ڵιиx .. ♥

Sad day :'(

Today was the memorial for Mrs. Little at school. It was so beautiful, I almost cried... and if you know me in real life you'll be able to verify that I never cry. Mrs. Nicolle, Mme. Boynton, and Mme. Dumas said a few words about how Mrs. Little was such a wonderful person and how much she loved each and every one of her students. Then Ms. Bromley went up and sang Ave Maria. At the end, they released a dove into the air (yes, a real dove, obviously) and told about how the dove represented Mrs. Little's spirit ascending into heaven and other beautiful and poetic things like that... I watched the dove until it disappeared, and I don't know if this is a coincidence or not, but it flew high and disappeared into the sky... there were no clouds where it flew... maybe the dove WAS the spirit of Mrs. Little, going to heaven. I'd definitely like to believe that it was.
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All my love HATE LOVE for once!,

ڵιиx .. ♥

Gah.

Grad today at school. Was down in the gym blowing up balloons all morning with a bunch of other girls from my class and Ms. Scott's class, and those balloons sure didn't like to stay intact. I'll bet you anything that about 50% of the batch we blew up popped. And we didn't even do anything to make it happen, they just randomly did on their own! Some were wet inside as well, yech.

I can't believe it's the last week of school! The whole year seemed to go by in the blink of an eye. It seems like just yesterday that I was lying on my bed crying because it was the end of last year and I was moving schools and I was gonna miss James so farkin' much because he was the meaning of my life. Wait, scratch WAS. He still IS.

There are still so many things I wanna do and say to people... people who go to my school, people who go to my old school... Ruining the lives of NM, EB, and MG are high on that list, but since it's the end of the year and I'm supposed to be all happy-peppy and jolly, I'll stop talking about how those three are such drips and start talking about something happy-peppy, jolly, and not boring. Because to me, happy-peppy things are just not the most exciting things on the face of our big earth. I can't think of any right now anyway. But I'll keep my promise that I'll tell you about something non-boring. I know that some of you readers are backstabbing bumwarks who love to spread rumours, so I'll give you a nice rumour to spread. PENGUINS ARE TAKING OVER THE WORLD, AUUUGHHH! TAKE COVER!

Okay, okay. So maybe you guys are too smart to believe that penguins are actually taking over the world. So here's a different one. I AM DRINKING ROOT BEER RIGHT NOW! Only problem with that one is that it's true. And what kind of a loser would want to spread a rumour that's true? Not me, that's for sure.

Maybe I'll give up on writing about something un-boring for now. See you later, alligator.
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All my love HATE,

ڵιиx .. ♥

Groovy Jinxed-out jewelry...

I hung out with Dee today and we did some beading. I made some nice Jinxed-out glam to wear... on top of my text is a shot of the necklace, which says, "You just got Jinxed by Jinx!" The name Jinx is actually kind of the property of my good friend Suuanner, so maybe I should have made her a necklace too... what do you think? Check out her site at www.jinx-ghost.piczo.com!
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All my love HATE,

ڵιиx .. ♥

Farking bumwarks.

By the power vested in me, I hereby ask that if you dislike me to any degree, and for any reason, thou shalt get lost. But if you have the patience for my negativity, then please read on...
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My God, I absolutely detest MG, EB, and NM. If those three would just go jump off a cliff, my life would be divine. It all started two days ago in the line to go inside at afternoon recess...
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I ran my finger along the wall of the school. "Ho-hum..." I thought.

I heard footsteps behind me. I looked back idly. There was NM, coming toward me. She was now almost beside me. Little by little she inched up closer, then she yelled, "OUCH!!"

I looked at her, wondering what was wrong. She seemed fine, so I just continued walking.

Then, EB's voice piped up. "Excuse me! You just hit NM so hard and didn't say sorry!"

Once more, I looked at NM. She was wearing a falsely sad expression, and clutching her arm, near her shoulder. I rolled my eyes and continued walking again.

For a few wonderful minutes, I was rid of the spazzy voice of EB. Then, as we got upstairs, my luck ended. I began talking to my friends Hannah, Sarah, and Alyshah, but no sooner had we began talking, when EB appeared again. "Excuse me," she repeated. "I don't want you being mean to my friends." She turned on her heel and stalked down the hall. Hannah looked at me questioningly, and I shrugged. Then she followed EB. Two minutes later she returned.

"EB says you hit NM so hard and didn't say sorry," she reported.
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Notice how MG didn't appear in this episode? Well, she does in the next one, which takes place yesterday at lunch recess. P.S., isn't NM such a freakin' sook?
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My friends and I were just being... well, us, at lunch recess. Namely, insane! So, one of us got the crazy idea to link arms and do the can-can while singing the Mini-Wheats commercial song, so we did. Well, we just so happened to run straight into EB and MG hanging out with their crew. It was a little embarrassing to actually continue with our walking... er, dancing... Mini-Wheats ad, so I said "Okay, weird, people!" and we stopped. Well, of course, MG and EB had to come up and screw up our lives with their presence, and just to irk us, of course they say, "Excuse me, why did you just call us weird people?!"

Well, believe me, it was all I can do not to tell them, "You know what, bumwarks? FARK OFF!" but I didn't say that, because I didn't exactly want to get into trouble with the principal. So I just said, "We didn't call you weird people."

"Well MG said you did," replied EB.

"She can get a hearing test, then," I stated. "No offense to her."

"Well, just because you say 'no offense,' it doesn't mean it won't offend people. And besides, she's older than you, so I think you should respect your elders."

She turned on her heel and walked away with her nose in the air.
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For those of you who are interested, I'll have you know now that MG, NM, and EB are a measly one year older than me. Funny, huh? Now if they were saying that to a seven-year-old, maybe the seven-year-old would actually pay attention to them. But I don't think someone my age would. I'm quite sure they're sorry to hear that.

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All my love HATE,

ڵιиx .. ♥

I would die for you, I would kill for you...

Dear Boy,

I know I've already told you this, but...


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All my love HATE,

ڵιиx .. ♥

Welcome to the dungeon...

My name's... well, that's no business of yours. Just call me Jinx.

So, I live in Toronto. I have pediophobia, that's fear of dolls, for those of you who don't know. I'm what some people would call negative, and I'm not afraid to admit that. If you don't like my negativity, then by all means fark off while you still have the chance.
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Today I went to SickKids hospital for them to check on my eye... on the way back, I caught sight of some people riding in a double-decker bus with a huge advertisement for beer... wow, that's class. Ugh, NOT. I mean, seriously, if you wanted to ride in a bus that advertised alcohol, wouldn't you want it to be for champagne or something? Honestly!

When I arrived back at school, Hannah ran over to the car in a flurry of excitement because I promised her I'd bring her some false nails to wear. I brought the nails all right, but I forgot the glue. Just my luck, huh?

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All my love HATE,

ڵιиx .. ♥